Ariva!

Who would have thought? Me. Me! I never thought I would be the type to be a slave to the 9 to 5 gig, but lo and behold, I have become the 8-7 girl with the way things are going. I can't say that I am 100% corporate because I'm into fashion retail, but this is still very much a business landscape however you look at it. My days are spent looking at numbers, computing for margins, managing inventory, analyzing sales trends..you get the picture. As a lover of fashion, it saddens me that my only relationship with shoes and bags now is deciding whether I can get good margins from it. Don't get me wrong, this business is challenging, dynamic, and exciting, but it is STILL a desk job and requires a lot of number crunching. (ME! number crunching!)

So anyway, the other day, I watched this TV show where they were talking about creating a "visual map" in order to remind yourself everyday, of what you want to achieve and why you do what you do. It's like putting your dreams in actual pictures. This is pretty easy to do since we did this all the time in kindergarten. I've decided that this is something I MUST do. In my heart I know that this is where I should be, but the repetitive things that I do everyday is what gets to me. Prior to working for my company, I had been doing freelance work, and before that, I was in publishing where I had no set schedule and I could wear anything I wanted. Well I still can, pretty much, but my schedule here is packed everyday.

So that being said, I can still say that I am having fun and learning a lot. It's been a surreal past 3 years for me because I have started achieving what I had always dreamt of. Now, the challenge is for me to keep pushing myself and to stay focused. There are still so many things I can do with this life that has been give to me.

Wow. It's a friday and I feel so melancholic. Damn, I think I need a drink.