So stop

I just realized that I use the words "stop" and "enough" way too many times in this blog. Yikes! Not a very good sign. Must be why I've been feeling so crappy lately. I've had to put a halt or purge myself of rotting bad habits.

Foot in Mouth Disease

It's come to a point where there are no excuses anymore. I don't know why I do it, or how I do it, but I always end up with my foot in my mouth. Lately, I have been really trying to consciously control any raging emotions that just threaten to spill out of my mouth. This was not a practice in the past. I would just let it out if I wanted. But with age, I've also come to realize that in this world, there is not just me.Haha. Other people have feelings that need care. Just as mine do. My sister told me it will take time to slowly change. Kind of like a muscle that's never been exercised before. The process will be long and arduous. But man, if I can avoid that downright disgusting feeling of wanting to bang my head against the wall after mouthing off like a crazy person, then I am willing to go through this process. No more. It's enough. It's enough.

STop!!!

I can't do this to myself. I can't. I can't. How can I allow one person to cause me so much misery?? People are truly masochistic by nature.

Enough Mariless. Enough. Stop. Stop.