More rambling..

I've decided I have more to say, thus a follow-up to my previous entry. I suppose it can be revealed here and now that I am planning a trip to Europe next year. I have a friend based in Morroco and she will be joining me for that delicious sojourn. Top of the list of course is my much awaited and anticipated return to Firenze. I plan to be away for a good 21 days, and 7 days will be for Italy alone. I want to see my friends, visit my school and basically retrace my steps from years back. I wonder how much has changed, or perhaps how much I have changed. I hope to be able to see other parts of Italy but how I can squeeze all of this in 7 days will be a test on my planning skills. In Italy, it will be more like a return home, after being away for so long.

Next stop will be Spain, another place which is etched into my memory and which I promised to go back to. I was hoping to return with a man, but, oh well. This time I want to see Madrid and them Malaga. I was going through the FB photos of one my friends and she had been on a trip to Spain herself, The photos were so beautiful which makes me all the more excited. As an ode to the beauty of one Portuguese man, I must absolutely go to Portugal. Frankly I'm not sure what to expect. Although I know the country being that it's so close to North East Africa has some Moorish influences.

Last stop will be Morroco where my friend is currently based. I will of course HAVE to get on a camel, visit Marrakesh, and try one of those Morrocan spas.

So the plan is to work like hell this year and reward myself for a job well done next year.

Last Saturday I caught myself watching this reality show NYC Prep and damn, however inane that silly show was, I could NOT move from where I was sitting. It's so silly that you just want to stick around and see who's gonna do the next dumb thing, or say the next stupid thing.Those kids live in this mad bubble created by parents who don't give a sh*t. That being said, it's not so bad to have all that for maybe, say, a week in a month. But at the end of it, I would want to go back to my normal life. Hands down.

Another year...

My birthday is coming up pretty soon and as usual I am feeling uneasy about it. I'm trying to figure out where the discomfort is coming from. Do I feel like crap because I'm not where I imagined myself to be or just plain sad about getting old. I'm not really thinking about babies, although this should be a concern I suppose. Maybe it's a question of, am I growing? Am I wiser? Am I better? If I could honestly say that I was, then maybe I wouldn't feel so crappy. I don't know. I'm not really sure. God knows I want to be a better person. I want to do better at my job, work on relationships, share more. So am I better? Perhaps I am. For one thing I am not such a reactive person anymore. I try my best at least. When I think back at my younger self it makes me cringe.

A loooong week.

Some weeks are just more hellishly busy than others and this week is one of them. It's like everyday is packed with things to do, people to meet, reports to finish. Tomorrow there's an Italian Festival event at Rustans Makati and of course we're all required to go. Apart from that we have store visits to do in the morning. On Friday, there's a meeting with top management about something really crucial to Aerosoles. The meeting is supposed to start at 5pm by the way. I can't imagine what time we'll finish. Atleast I'll cap the day by watching the portugal - brazil match at a sports bar where all the expats supposedly go. That should be fun. In other news, Charice Pempengco is joining Glee for one season I think. That's a luck girl right there. Lea Salonga should be given a part too. She's a broadway trained singer and actress, she'd be perfect! Oh I wish I could sing too.

In other, other news. Damn all the South American and Mediterranean soccer players are pretty hot stuff. What I'd give to have a peek inside the men's locker room.

Given the chance, I'd have a look at: ( In random order)

1. Portugal
2. Italy
3. Mexico
4. Argentina
5. Spain
6. Paraguay
7. Uruguay

I mean, even with clothes on, they sizzle already, seriously.

World Cup, etc

My days have been filled with futbol matches and work as usual. I really, really enjoy the world cup games because the energy is just so different from the regular matches of course. There's so much passion, sacrifice, and emotions that come come into play. Plus the level of skill is just magnificent and a joy to watch. The last match that left me breathless was Argentina vs. South Korea. Insane amount of talent the Argentinians have. It was pretty clear the South Koreans were intimidated.

I have been counting down the days till the end of the month for two reasons. July marks my birthday and second, it is the start of FW10 season..which means business review again. In fashion retail, we divide the seasons to Spring/Summer and Fall/Winter. In terms of months, it's Jan-June for SS and July-Dec for FW. I have been pushing hard to reach my sales plans for the season but sometimes situations are beyond your control. It is just excruciating to have to explain to top management why the numbers are so, however justified the reasons may be. But I guess you do what you can and that's really all we can promise. I still have a week and a half to go so I'm not giving up!

I am quite happy though that I've achieved an important goal for the year which is to get promoted. Yay! Not bad at all. I am aiming to get everything on that list so there's more to cover for me.

I have been seriously eyeing this pair of shoes at Rustans but I am biding my time till the End of Season Sale next month. Just hoping that no one buys it before then.

Universe willing..

I lost the post I was writing so maybe the universe was telling me it was crap. Anyway, major issue # 1: Impending birthday which I would like to sleep through if possible and wake up the next morning 25 again. Major issue # 2#: What is up with all the unsolicited relationship advice? The problem seems to be that I am not in one. Thus, giving people license to dispense advice. Major issue # 3: Figuring out what I must engage in AW ( After Work). You see, I have lots of interests, I am fascinated by the philosophies of yoga and kabbalah, I love foreign films, and I have taken to eating very healthy food lately. How I am supposed to condense all my interests into one unifying activity is beyond me.Major issue # 4: I really must stop checking work emails from home. This webmail stuff is totally throwing me off course.

Time to kick start

Gosh this feels so strange. I haven't visited my site in a long time. I guess there wasn't anything to say. It's been a whirlwind past couple of months and I can't even say it's slowing down already. Anyway, my sister is still in Vietnam but it feels like she's just nearby coz we YM and text so much. I still miss her though. It's hard to fill in her "big sister" shoes. Speaking of shoes! I'm so excited about my new project! Well one of the many, I suppose. Check out the DC kicks here on my site. They're a steal for P3200. I hate to sound like a TVC. But seriously, these are great gifts for the holidays. How's everyone doing??

Out of the closet

Sometimes you think that you're stepping out of your comfort zone, but really, you aren't. Have I really? Well I lived away from home for about a year, but my parents supported me financially the entire time. So does that count? Maybe it does, but it could have been more meaningful if I had tried to support myself. I realize that all the things I have done in my life was a result of my "searching." You know that empty feeling that while you have "stuff", what does it really mean to have them when you didn't work for them? I was never satisfied and I wanted to really give something back. To put it simply, I was looking for my purpose.

Recently I've had a few surprises at work, both good and bad. I think I've said this before but the work that I do is something I love and I feel lucky that I wake up in the morning to do the kind of work I do. It hasn't been a completely smooth run and I think I only realized recently that I needed a change. I needed to grow. Well as usual, the universe cooked up just what I needed, at the right time, and the right place. I've been given the opportunity to welcome a new challenge. I'm still waiting to see if this is really what's meant for me. No worries for me. I trust that things will happen if they should.